This may be a little rambly, but I want to write it down while its fresh in my mind, and heart.
So lately I've been thinking about God's plan for my life versues my planning and hoping he goes along with it. One of the areas I struggle in is trusting God to bring me a mate.
My friend and I were talking today about our desire to have children. And my desire to have children, biologically and adopted, is getting stronger and stronger every day. However I start to worry because here I am, 27 years old, and single. I haven't had a date in years. And yes I'm being serious.
Granted, I probably could have had a date or many dates if I did not have standards and set the bar high. But I know what I am looking for in a mate, and I don't see the point in wasting my time, and his and putting my heart out on the line for something that won't be.
In my women's bible study I"ve really been getting convicted about my plans vs. God's plan. And something finally clicked with me last night during my prayer time.
God has a plan for my life. And God has a Perfect Love Story all written out for me. It will be better than I could ever imgaine or dream up of on my own.
But yet I tend to ignore that. I tend to see someone I am interested in or think there is a possibility of and go after it, without consulting God or even remerbing that he exists at times! (just being honest, we all know how STUBBORN I AM!!)
So why do I do all of that? Why do I run around and twirl in circles when I could be working on the woman and future wife that God wants me to be? He has his plan for my life and my love story and he's in control of it.
So thats what I'm trying to do. To be calm. To trust in him. To not stalk. HAH! just kidding!! ;) But to really work on who *I* need to be before we drag someone else into this.
So pray with me that I will be patient and I will let God work on me.
And if you're single and struggling, just remember. God has his perfect love story written out for you as well. You're just not to that chapter yet.
<3
So lately I've been thinking about God's plan for my life versues my planning and hoping he goes along with it. One of the areas I struggle in is trusting God to bring me a mate.
My friend and I were talking today about our desire to have children. And my desire to have children, biologically and adopted, is getting stronger and stronger every day. However I start to worry because here I am, 27 years old, and single. I haven't had a date in years. And yes I'm being serious.
Granted, I probably could have had a date or many dates if I did not have standards and set the bar high. But I know what I am looking for in a mate, and I don't see the point in wasting my time, and his and putting my heart out on the line for something that won't be.
In my women's bible study I"ve really been getting convicted about my plans vs. God's plan. And something finally clicked with me last night during my prayer time.
God has a plan for my life. And God has a Perfect Love Story all written out for me. It will be better than I could ever imgaine or dream up of on my own.
But yet I tend to ignore that. I tend to see someone I am interested in or think there is a possibility of and go after it, without consulting God or even remerbing that he exists at times! (just being honest, we all know how STUBBORN I AM!!)
So why do I do all of that? Why do I run around and twirl in circles when I could be working on the woman and future wife that God wants me to be? He has his plan for my life and my love story and he's in control of it.
So thats what I'm trying to do. To be calm. To trust in him. To not stalk. HAH! just kidding!! ;) But to really work on who *I* need to be before we drag someone else into this.
So pray with me that I will be patient and I will let God work on me.
And if you're single and struggling, just remember. God has his perfect love story written out for you as well. You're just not to that chapter yet.
<3
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God has one awesome love story for you, He is just waiting for the right time to publish it:)
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God has one awesome love story written for you, He is just waiting for the right time to publish it:)
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I don't think so. I have a strong desire in my heart to be married and have children, and I think God plants those desires in your heart.
I think what I need to come to terms with is whether I will be single forever or married someday, God is still working on me and hasn't formed me into what I SHOULD be!